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I would absolutely be lying if I didn’t say last night wasn’t a tough night quite a heavy burden on my heart to know that I needed to make this decision and also cried I cried until the early morning of hours every sound was making me crazy I thought it was him my heart was s*** was my head wished it wasn’t I’m in this internal struggle within myself knowing that I deserve so much better than this but knowing that my heart I gave for life to that person and then decided to use it as toilet paper and take a s*** all over it it’s really devastating it’s frustrating it’s disappointing mostly It’s just sad but I’m smart enough to know that it’s also bulshit what I’m going through and it’s not worth it anymore and it’s inexcusable is unacceptable and I’m over it so my heart is just going to have to tell us what the f*** off for a little bit because this is not going to happen anymore don’t let me second day and then the next thing is every time I start to get that reminiscing feeling about me that idiot maybe just open his mouth and just said something or multiple things that completed remind me why I’m 100% done with his f****** pathetic ass I don’t even know what I was thinking for 4 years like I look at the guy now and I look at him like he’s just he’s a stranger he’s just gone out smoked out fast living embarrassment is the general way to put it he’s just embarrassing now I’m appalled that I even wasted a minute on him but those for years some of my second day yes I have those moments where my heart is completely shattered into a million pieces at my feet but I’m smart enough to know that the level bulshit that he is living his life like right now is unacceptable and I’m not taking it anymore so in an effort to get back on a forward momentum life path and to make some progress I’ve got a few goals and tonight I’m going to start by at least getting one of those goals off my list so I can start going for it again I will check back in hopefully this is a painless as possible process and then I have great success because I deserve so much better than the garbage that he’s turned into now it’s not even funny and it’s unacceptable and it’s gross honestly so here’s to the countdown to get another day being just around the corner looking forward to dinner with three until then I will talk to you later XOXO

On a side note I really do owe him a thank you considering the fact he’s turned into just touch a low life these days he’s made the process surprisingly a lot easier than I would have ever guessed that he continues to reiterate why he’s not worth it anymore every time he seems open his mouth cuz everything that comes out of it is just f****** ridiculous embarrassing just completely f***** off we just premature summation of who he is now these days so I’m better off without him because honestly I’m too good for this now because he does not have a grasp on reality whatsoever he’s not a good person he’s nobody to be looked up to he’s not a real model he has no morals or values left that much is evident if you so obsessed with me some f****** fast living drug-dealing a****** now but he’s really killing it but it just doesn’t have a place in my life anymore so you owe him a huge dose of gratitude cuz it had he not been such a piece of s*** these days I probably would have not been able to get on this process again and actually been successful with it but I can see now without a doubt you can be way easier than I ever would have guessed because he’s just so much garbage now. Never in a million years would I want to be with somebody who acts the way he does now so really he did me a favor turning into some low-life immoral disgusting skank ass loser really was a motivator that I needed to realize I’m better than he is and I deserve so much so much so much more than he’ll ever be able to give clearly because he’s too immature you’re too f***** off and he’s too and motivated to be a positive person in life there’s nothing good about him he could drop dead tomorrow nobody would miss him because he just not a good person to have in the world

Bring on the beach! It would be so nice to hear the ocean waves and feel that salty air on my face it’s been way too long should be very therapeutic for the soul as well have a good weekend everyone