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I would rather be completely miserable every single day with somebody beside me over being single and looking at myself every single day in the mirror to start today and convince myself that everything is okay with that I take the misery over the loneliness every single time without fail I need to do something different lonely I have the power to change this and I’ve been studying it for so long I don’t even know how to do that my first try I’m going to approach life with a yes mentality if opportunities are presented my way I need to quit being scared and apprehensive and holding on to a dream that no longer exist and start trying to give myself the opportunity that I need to be happy again if it’s even possible is constant limbo that have been in for years is detrimental to my very existence I question everything about myself now I don’t like who I see in the mirror anymore I don’t even recognize myself I don’t know when the last time is that I laughed I can’t name the last time I made a memory that mattered I’ve been stuck in stagnant waiting for a ‘tomorrow’ that is never going to come. Cleary, I need to start being more open to Opportunities life may present because I’m just wasting time in life- I sit alone watching the days, the minutes and the seconds waste away, that could be focused on something that’s actually worth putting my whole effort into again, hell if it’s even if possible. I don’t know if I can even do that with another person again now after being so completely devastated, demoralized, fucked off, ignored, demeaned and left to rot for so long by someone I love so much. I guess time will tell…